Hey all,
Updating from Mocha since the internet is down again. It's kind of odd but i took it for granted in the U.S. how reliable things are. In India, everyday nothing is guarenteed. We have a leak in the roof, the water runs out regularly, as well as the power. We've been out of rice for the past few days which means all we eat at home is chapatti (like tortillas) and daal (the consistency of spaghetti sauce). Our kids didn't have a single full day of school last week, and times of things change constantly. I've gotten pretty used to it, and it's not a big deal, but it's still really wierd. :)

I can't go too much into detail on my blog, but let me tell you guys that i love God SO MUCH! :) It's so cool to me that He cares as much as He does. People put Him down all the time. They mock God, and the Son who died for them. Even as they talk about things like Bible-themed porn videos they've seen, God sent ME here to be a vessel that He could use to pour His love out over them. Hoe does He do it?! I'm so thankful. Thank you God! Thank you, thank you, thank you. And what's more, He's come through for me. He has done everything He promised. He has kept me safe and healthy for this whole trip! I'm just blown away, and humbled. I think I half expected God to break one of His promises or not completely provide. I thought He was no more trustworthy than a human being. I'm so ashamed to say that, but it's true. I simply couldn't fathom in my brain that God was someone i could completely trust. Now I can. And it is such an unexplainable and amazing feeling. I feel so free and so SAFE. There IS someone I can completely trustwho will never hurt me or leave me. I'm relieved and fulfulled and utterly thankful. Like I've been running, exhausted, and I'm finally sitting down. God completely provides for me. I can go anywhere, do anything-and still God will be with me. Always He will forgive me, no matter what I do. Always He will help me and guide me, even when i get myself in a bad situation. I am NEVER EVER NEVER alone. The Lord my God is with me wherever I go. He will never leave me, nor forsake me. God, i trust you completely. I will follow You to the ends of the earth! YOUR will be done.

That's something else that is ridiculously cool about following God. He catches you off guard sometimes and includes you in His crazy, insane plans and they usually require you to do somethingyou're most afraid of doing. Then you decide you'll do it because when you refuse, it eats at you. And God comes through, and you get over your fear and you're blessed and because you're with God you bless others as well and even though it's just the wildest, craziest idea, it feels so RIGHT, so incredibly perfect for you. That is what God's plan for your life feels like when you follow it. Not that it isn't difficult at times. The first day and a half here, i was curled up in a ball on my bunk, balling my eyes out, trying not to barf, and simultaneously repeating "God will never leave me" and "Why the hell did You bring me here?!" i insisted that i wasn't near as strong as He thought i was. But God just sat next to me listening, waiting for me to come to my senses. Which i did. Meltdowns are OK-He knows it's hard. But it's like the pain you have when you're exercising. It means the fat is burninig off and you're growing muscle-you're getting stronger. You can then climb bigger mountains. You can go more places, do more things. It's all part of our goal in our walk with God. Did I say walk? More like our crazy, wild, white-water-rafting journey with God. Our number one goal as disciples of Christ. To become fully formed in Christ. The perfect, God-breathed masterpiece He created us to be. In Christ. That means who we are as God already sees us. In a sphere where the atmosphere is Christ's death, burial, and resurrection which cleansed us completely. The love of God, the mercy of God, the blessings of God, are all there. If you've been saved, then you're there. We just have trouble remembering that :)

Now may our Lord Jesus Christ Himself, and our God and Father, who has loved us and given us everlasting consolation and good hope by grace, comfort your hearts and establish you in every good word and work. (2 Thes 2:16-17)
Love,
Cassie