Hey Everybody! Tomorrow is the big day. I leave for O'Hare in the morning and fly out at 4 p.m. on Wednesday. At 9 p.m. Thursday, i will reach New Delhi, India and then i have a 9 hour layover. At 6 a.m. Friday morning I get on a little plane that will take me to Jaipur, India. And then i will finally be there! :) I have just about everything i need, and i think i'll get around to packing sometime today...
Everyone asks me what I'm feeling at this point. Excited? Nervous? A little doubtful? I can't really explain what i feel...not any particular emotion. I mostly feel focused. I know what I am doing and I know it's the right thing. It's like i have tunnel vision or something-all i see is India and all i feel is God by my side. I have absolutely, 100% NO doubts about what i am doing. I know with complete certainty that this is God's plan-that He wants me to go with Him. This is a huge relief-I don't feel any fear because no matter what happens, i know that i am supposed to go. There are no if's or but's. I went out on a limb here, trusting God to meet me halfway, and He is. I feel very satisfied and grounded, like when you know you made it to the right place at the right time.
One of my favorite illustrations Jesus made is in John 12, about wheat. A grain of wheat is alone unless it falls to the ground and dies. By dying, it comes alive again and multiplies. It's mostly about Jesus Himself, but when i read this i am reminded that in order to really live, I have to "die". i can't keep my life on earth all to myself-i have to give it up to God in order for Him to use me. If I keep everything I have to myself-if I make decisions based on what I want instead of what God wants, I won't grow to anywhere near my potential.
I have been given eternal life, which is not so much about quantity of years but the quality of my years. I don't want to waste that. I am not a Christian so that i can go to heaven; I am a Christian so that i can live a life full of meaning and help others live a life of meaning also. I want to become fully formed in Christ-and by doggedly following Him no matter the cost, i can become like Him a little more each day. God has a LIFE plan for each and every one of us that will fit us perfectly. If only we surrender our lives-then we can truly live.
The Kingdom of God is HERE. It doesn't start when we die and go to heaven-we are apart of the Kingdom of God the moment we're saved. And we are the only hope there is for bringing others into the Kingdom. Jesus already came and died and set everything up. If we don't say anything about the reason for the peace within us, NO ONE WILL. If we don't share our faith, NO ONE WILL. We are God's plan for bringing home lost sheep.
I hope that you are all listening to God for what His plan is for your life. But remember that everyday, you are where you are for a reason. Whether it is to give or recieve encouragement, pray that God will show you what He wants you to do each day. For me it's been hard to remember that. In all the excitement of leaving the country, i have had to constantly remind myself that i haven't left yet. God uses me here too. I should be just as active in my beliefs here as i will be in India.
Well, that was a bit heavier than i expected to be today, but there it is :) I would ask that you guys pray for my family. I know it's hard for them to let me go, and they need peace. Thank you once again for everything you guys have done to help me out! We are all a community together-I can't stand alone.
The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace. (Numbers 6:24-26)
Go and be Blessed :)
Love, Cassie
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